My precious daughter, it’s been over a year since you decided to go walkabout. I don’t know what made you slip off the grid in the end. Sometimes, I think maybe your desperate need to be “you” finally won out over your desperate need to be “perfect.” My sweet girl, I understand you had to be exhausted. What a battle!
I never expected you to be perfect, because God knows I’m not. You were always much harder on yourself than I could have ever been. It’s part of the human condition to make mistakes – over and over and it’s not easy to forgive yourself and keep moving forward. I didn’t anticipate the possibility that you would come to a full stop and disappear.
I can only hope that your need to be you eventually leads you right back to me. You know where I am; my arms wide open and a heart full of love.
I miss you. So much.